I'm so excited to reveal the cover of my young adult novel, CONTACT. Some of you may know that the book was originally published in 2014 with Hallowed Ink Press. Unfortunately, one year later, HIP closed its doors leaving my book an orphan.
A good samaritan author emailed me and suggested I submit it to her publisher, Evernight Teen. With nothing to lose, I took her advice and sent it in. I was beyond thrilled when Evernight Teen offered me a publishing contract. The book will come out sometime in 2016 (the date has yet to be determined). In the meantime, I would like to introduce to you the cover of the new CONTACT!!!
BOOK SUMMARY:
Mira
wants to die. She’s attempted suicide twice already and failed. Every
time she comes in contact with another person, skin to skin, that
person’s psyche uploads into hers. While her psychologist considers this
a gift, for Mira it’s a curse from which she cannot escape.
To
make matters worse, Mira’s father is being investigated for the deaths
of several volunteer test subjects of the miracle drug Gaudium. Shortly
after Mira’s mother starts asking questions, she ends up in a coma.
Although her father claims it was an accident, thanks to her “condition”
Mira knows the truth, but proving it just might get her killed.
EXCERPT:
I’m alive?
Yes. Still alive.
…Again.
A tube runs from
an IV bag into my arm, the plastic needle burrows under my skin like a tick.
Thank God I was unconscious when they put that in. I cringe at the thought of
being deluged with so many psyches at once—paramedics, nurses, doctors, all of
them touching me.
Where are my
clothes? They must have taken them off when I was out. This flimsy gown can’t
protect me. I want to tear off the tape securing the IV tube to my skin; rip it
off like a band-aid. I want out of here, but then I see Mama sleeping beside
me, her body sloped in a plastic chair. I shouldn’t have done this to her
again. But I had to try.
A plastic clamp
pinches my finger, connecting me to a heart monitor. Three inches further up,
my wrist is wrapped in gauze. Two months ago I would never have had the courage
to do this—or any reason to. But now, feeling the staples beneath the bandage,
I wonder how deep someone has to cut in order to die?
The curtain jerks
back, the metal rings dragging across the ceiling rail. Mama snaps to
attention. I half expect her to stand and salute.
“Miranda
Ortiz?” says a woman in a beige linen suit and crisp white blouse. She is thin, stiff, and colorless. She reeks
of Gardenias.
“I’m
Dr. Walsh from Mental Health,” she continues. The plastic laminated nametag
hanging from her neck confirms this.
Dr.
Walsh extends her hand, but instead of taking it, I grasp the edge of my sheet
and pull it up to my chin. Other than this stupid hospital gown, it’s the only
barrier I’ve got right now.
Mama stands up and
reaches over the bed to shake the doctor’s hand. “I’m Mira’s mother, Ana,” she
says wearily. She starts to sit back down, but Dr. Walsh interrupts.
“It’s
a pleasure to meet you in person, Mrs. Ortiz.
However, I’d like to speak to your daughter alone, if that’s all right.”
Dr.
Walsh is insistent, in a polite sort of way. Mama leans toward me, and for a
split second I think she’s going to kiss me goodbye. Though deep down I almost
wish she would, instead she offers me her gentle smile and tucks the sheet
under my shoulder.
“Please
don’t go,” I whisper.
“It’ll
only be a few minutes,” she says. “I’ll be just outside, all right?”
Mama
brushes a strand of hair from my eyes with her manicured fingernails, careful
to avoid contact with my skin. She smiles at me, but her eyes are wistful. As
she walks out, my insides tighten up and I suddenly realize how much I’ve
missed her touch. My instinct is to cling to her like when I was small, but
instead I press my arms stiffly to my sides like a corpse.
A security guard
opens the door and accompanies Mama out into the hall. Dr. Walsh takes Mama’s
empty chair, crosses one leg over the other and lays a clipboard on her
knee. “So,” she begins, “you cut
yourself last night. Is that right?”
Her
voice is casual and smooth, as if she’s just asked me what I ate for dinner.
She waits for me to respond. When I don’t, she glances down at her
clipboard. “I understand it’s not your
first attempt. You were just here a couple of weeks ago, I see. Overdose, but
no permanent damage done.”
She
glances up at me, pausing in case I have something to say.
I don’t.
“Miranda—”
“It’s
Mira.”
“Mira,
what happened that made you want to die?”
Her perfume hangs
heavy around her. I rub the sheet against my nose, trying to block out the overpowering
smell. The silence between us feels awkward. It’s obvious she’s going to sit
there for as long as it takes. I want her gone, so I might as well talk.
“My
boyfriend wants to dump me,” I tell her, and it’s true. Sort of.
“I
see,” she says. Her eyebrows lift a little. “Things aren’t going well between
the two of you?”
“Something
like that.”
Her
eyes narrow as she looks at her clipboard again. She thinks she’s got me all
figured out. She’s met a hundred kids like me, maybe more. In her eyes, I’m
just like all the rest.
Only I’m not.
“Mira, do you mind
if I ask you some questions?” She looks up at me, a trace of a smile on her
lips. “Your answers will help me understand what’s happening with you, all
right?”
She
begins with the same questions Dr. Jansen asked me the last time I was here: Do
you have trouble sleeping? How’s your appetite? Do you feel anxious or sad more
often than usual?
She’s
so pale with her white skin and bleached hair. Craig’s skin is light like hers.
I used to relish his touch and let his lips linger on mine as long as he
wanted. My skin tingles just thinking about him, but I shove the memories back,
burying them down deep inside me where they belong.
Dr.
Walsh shifts in her chair, drawing my mind back to the present. “Mira,” she
continues, “do you believe you have special powers?”
Beneath
the sheet my arm jerks, and the clip on my finger pops off. The monitor lets
out a loud, piercing beep. I pat around the mattress, but I can’t find the
clip. Then I see it dangling over the side of the bed. I reach for it, but Dr.
Walsh gets to it before I do.
“Here,”
she says, smiling. “Let me help you.”
“No,
don’t!” I say, grabbing for the clip.
Too
late.
Oh God. Please God, not again.
I squeeze my
eyelids shut, bracing for impact as she grasps my wrist in one hand and
replaces the clip with the other. It takes only half a second, like those
commercials where a crash test dummy rockets forward at high speed and slams
into a wall. In that instant every thought in Emma Lynn Walsh’s head collides
with mine—every thought, memory, hope, disappointment and dream. They come at
me like a hailstorm, assaulting me at random. I see her as a child falling off
her bike and scraping her knee, and her father scolding her for forgetting to
brake. I see the wedding ring slide onto her finger—her yanking it off and
flushing it down the toilet. I feel despair at her mother’s funeral and relief
at her father’s. She masks so much pain with poise and self-assurance, but
beneath it all she’s a mess.
“Mira?
Mira.”
I
open my eyes to see Dr. Walsh peering at me, a puzzled expression on her face.
“Let—go—of—me,”
I order though clenched teeth.
Dr. Walsh releases
my wrist. I turn on my side, rolling up in the sheet, attempting to disappear
into my cocoon. I hear the chair legs scrape against the floor as Dr. Walsh
slides it closer to my bed.
I stare at the
bottom of my IV bag, watching clear drops form, preparing to fall into the
tube. One by one they hang there for a moment suspended in time, and then plop!
I glance over my
shoulder and look at Dr. Walsh. Her smile is gone. Both feet are on the floor,
and she’s holding the clipboard up now, like a shield. There’s a yellow Sponge
Bob sticker on the back, staring at me with a goofy, wide-mouthed grin.
“Okay, Mira. Why
don’t we get back to your boyfriend? You said he wants to break up with you.
Why?” Dr. Walsh’s tone has changed. It’s softer now, more sympathetic, but what
can I tell her that won’t sound crazy?
“I
won’t let him touch me anymore.”
“So he told you he
wants to break up with you?”
“No.
He hasn’t said anything—yet.”
“Hasn’t
said anything.” Her voice holds a note of confusion. “Then, how do you know?”
She
dangles the question in front of me like the proverbial carrot, hoping to draw
me out. I don’t want to talk anymore, but something inside me needs to. Maybe
part of me believes there is a chance, no matter how slight, that this woman
might be able to help. That’s how desperate I’ve become.
I open my mouth to
say something, but I can’t. Instead, I just lay there wrapped up like a mummy,
someone who’s dead inside. Only I’m not dead. I’m alive. Too much alive.
Just
then a nurse comes into the room to check my IV. “Are you comfortable, Ms.
Ortiz?” she asks. “Your father called a bit ago. I assured him that if you
needed anything, anything at all, I’d see to it myself.”
The
nurse, a plump middle-aged woman wearing purple scrubs, glances at Dr. Walsh
and reacts as if the good doctor had just magically appeared there.
“Oh
my, I’m sorry, Dr. Walsh. I didn’t mean to intrude.”
“Not
a problem. We’re finished here,” says Dr. Walsh offering a nod.
I hear the snap of
the clipboard’s metal clasp as she tucks her pen into it. Walking around the
side of my bed, she gives me a conciliatory smile. “All right, Mira,” she says.
“I’m going to have a word with your mother about getting you admitted. I need
you to be somewhere safe, where we can keep an eye on you for a few days.”
As
Dr. Walsh turns to leave, I find my voice again. “If you hate them so much, why
smell like them?”
“Pardon?”
She turns, pausing at the door.
“Gardenias.
You hate gardenias.”
Her lips turn pale as she presses
them together. I don’t want to do this, but I need her to believe me. My voice
chokes when I say it. “It’s your mother’s perfume.”
Dr.
Walsh’s eyes glisten; hurt and confusion fills her face. Without a word, she
turns and walks through the door, taking the invisible gardenia cloud with her.
